So lately I've been having dreams around two central points. Kissing women, and towers falling down (tipping over) with me inside of them. I'm fairly certain they have nothing to do with each other, but they sometimes are in the same dream.

Like last night's, for example. There was a wedding, I'm pretty sure it was mine, and I was worried about being all polite when we ate. Of course I made mistakes and was my normal clumsy self. Anyway, at some point I was kissing a woman. I'm pretty sure I was actually getting married to the woman, but that's another story. This was all taking place IN THE SPACE NEEDLE. So, then it's time to dance, and Ellen (yes, as in the talk show host) was there. I danced with her little six year old daughter (which I'm pretty sure she does not have), and then the Space needle started to fall over with us inside. I woke up just as we were about to hit the ground.

It was kind of terrifying. Now, the woman thing doesn't bother me. I've known I was bi for quite a while. But it's weird that I'm having so many dreams about it, practically every night. I'm not sure if it's just a need for affection, which very well may be it, or if I specifically want affection from women at this point in my life. The woman is always fairly nondescript, no one I know, so that rules out a few things, in my mind at least.

There's also the matter of the falling building. This could mean a few things. A few of them very not good. My dreams are very first person realistic, so it feels like this is actually happening. Considering that's one of my hugest irrational fears, it can turn fairly normal, pleasant dreams (like I said, a wedding, although anxiety was a prevalent theme in this one) into nightmares which I wake up panting from.

Any thoughts or interpretations would be welcome, but I really just wanted to get this written down and out there.
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